I was driving to Montego Bay on Friday evening. The traffic was crazy and the sun was setting in what seemed like the end of the sea, as far as my eyes could reach. My mind was occupied even though the radio was playing loud enough to distract me from thinking about Jay. I distracted myself so much that I forgot to inform my caring soul that I’ll be out of town for a day. It was getting bad but I kept it under control.
I took a few pictures as I allowed the traffic to flow. One of those was the sun setting along the sea and as much as I didn’t want to, I dove into my thoughts, asking a million time “WHY”. I wanted answers so badly but the sun was also reflecting on my face which started sweating, making my glasses slide from my big nose.
The sun was setting gently and it took quite a while as I drove watching the darkness sneaking in and I had to use my head lights.
This morning I thought of it as I let Jay go…….
Sometimes in life the day is long and we can’t wait for it to end. The week from Monday to Friday already seems like a million to us but each day holds only 24 hrs.
It doesn’t matter what’s going on, not even how messy life seems. There is no need to force your sun to set before your real evening comes.
As I mature, I’m convinced that depression is not a sign of weakness. I had it in two different faces. I was pushed by people I knew and loved to that “depressive face”. I almost gave up but I didn’t. I cried at night and a few times during the day when I was triggered. I refused to do things I loved but the moment I chose to open up to Mr. Shield, life turned in a different direction and I learned to bulldoze anything wanting me to be depressed.
The trauma is there, and will be there for as long as you are healing, but the strength to overcome depression is powerful. That is why I am convinced that depression is a sign of strength. Choosing to wake from that bed and do the little you do with love is enough to strengthen an individual to do mightily. The moment one chooses to act positively that’s where the strength lies, grounded in perseverance to make it consistent.
In whatever phase of life you are in, know that you are a strong being. You are stronger than you think. Be proud of yourself and let the sun rest in due time.
In His time, He will make thing’s beautiful again. Do not force the sun to set, let the golden, silver shining rays of your evening sun be enjoyed by generations to come because you were strongand you persevered to the sunset.
JLucas (ONE LOVE ONE HEART) 
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