“What are the deepest fears I truly have?” And then I began to write. Let me try to …

What Are Your Deepest Fears, and How Do You Overcome Them?

My deepest fear is one day to shame my mother Church with any scandal. 

Life itself is beautiful with a lot of challenges from within and without. There are lots of things that are lucking but there are few things that make it all work out very well. Temptations to just put all to an end and do things my way can be appetizing but when I remember how many people look up to me makes my intestine tremble in my stomach. 

There is an individual at the moment on my chest and a few times I have been tempted to lash words towards the person. But my greatest fear is “will I wound the person the way I was wounded?” Then I PULL BACK. 

One of my greatest fears is to fight. Grandma once told me never to engage in fighting. You may knock someone who was/is having underline conditions and they drop dead. You will end up in prison for the rest of your life. 

Everytime I am giving the sacrament of reconciliation I remind the person to pray for me. To be who I was created to be and do what I was called to do because …. 

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, ‘Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?’ Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”

― Marianne Williamson, A Return to Love: Reflections on the Principles of “A Course in Miracles”